There are clothes in my closets that I cannot seem to part with. Naka-ilang batches na ako ng benta ng pre-loved clothes ko but there are pieces talaga that I can’t let go. Just like this dress that I bought in one of the bazaars way, way back before I married Alvin.
I’m happy because after all the love and hate drama with my weight, I can still wear some of my pre-Anika dresses. They feel a bit snugger compared before but they still fit nicely. Iniisip ko nga eh, looking at my throwback photos, mukha pala hindi ako kumakain ng masusustansyang pagkain noon. I was 98 lbs in my 20s. I could wear two piece bikini swimsuits confidently. I can carry wearing anything. Hindi masagwa sa akin ang pekpek shorts. And even if I wear plunging tops, makikita mo na pusod ko pero hindi mo pa din aninag ang boobs ko. Payat kasi. Kaya pala everytime my dad comes home from Amsterdam, he would always ask me if I’m eating okay. Ang payat ko kasi. Iba kasi ang connotation ko ng sexy that time. Feeling ko, the more payat, the sexier. Hindi pala ganun. Albeit weighing 15lbs more, mas gusto ko yung curves ko ngayon. Mas maganda ang may laman maintained with exercise. Yan ay ang akin lang naman.
Speaking, we recently had our annual physical exam at work and the results just came in.
Na-stress ako. My cholesterol level is off the charts!
I showed that to my mother-in-law, who’s a microbiologist. She told me that masyadong mataas yung results ko for my age. I got scared. That’s why siguro my batok always hurt. She also told me to change my diet muna kahit for 2 weeks then have the test done again. Baka kasi dahil lang sa diet yan. Make sense. I thought of the kilos of shrimps that I ate for weeks before the annual physical exam.
I googled what not to eat when you have high cholesterol. There was a list of all the food that I should not eat. Hindot na yan. Sana they just said na lang “BAWAL KAININ KAHIT ANONG MASARAP!”.
I got depressed when they said I can’t eat shellfishes. Goodbye shrimps and oysters! Bawal din ang butter, commercially baked goods, red meat, fries, burgers, cream cheese and ice cream (kill me now). Anything fatty and oily is bawal.
Eto pa ha? Apart from the fact that I have high cholesterol, my sugar level is bordering on diabetic.
Wala na ang cakes and sweets ko!!!
I have to eat more fruits and vegetables.
Alvin’s having so much fun disciplining what I eat now. Feel na feel. We went to the grocery the other night to buy food that I can eat. He bought me multi-grain bread, vegetables and fishes that steamed lang daw ang luto. I got a tub of Buko Pandan but he made me return it. He’s so into this. Ampalaya nga pinaulam sa akin kaninang breakfast eh *rolling my eyes now*.
ALVIN: Eto naman maka-ampalaya. Parang tatlong pirasong ampalaya lang kinain mo kanina!
Ganun na din yun.
It’s so sad. I love eating. I can’t imagine having this kind of sickness. I feel so young to have it. Deep inside I feel that I’m still only 27 years old eh. I can’t accept it yet because heller, I exercise pa ng lagay na yan! I told Alvin nga eh. Bakit ganun, I exercise more compared to him. I mean technically dapat I’m healthier than him di ba? Kaso Alvin’s as healthy as a horse. Ma-gulay kasi daw siya and he almost never eats sweets.
Good luck to me for the next two weeks. I hope it’s just diet and I don’t need to drink medicine for this. No to junk food, yes to healthier food and exercise pa more for me in the next days.
Crossing my fingers!