It was so weird today because I woke up palpitating. My heartbeat per minute was 108. Para akong nag-brisk walking pero I just woke up. So weird. Anyway, it was like that the whole day. It was just nice because my professor in my class kanina was very entertaining and engaging. Thank God hindi boring yung lessons so I was able to take my mind off the palpitations even for a while.
I think I have two reasons why I palpitated the whole day.
One, the other night during our company event, since I can’t drink alcohol yet, yung delicious juice ng Bizu ang tinira ko. Feeling ko nangasim ako and it triggered my GERD which triggered the palpitations.
Two, I had a session with the psychiatrist and the psychologist yesterday. Information overload ata.
It’s 11:30 pm and I’m feeling better naman. I just got home from the mall with Janis. I asked her if she can come with me to look for a long gown for this wedding I am attending next week. We went to SM BF. Magaganda kasi ang dresses dun sa formal wear section nila. I fell in love with this midnight blue dress with lace. It costs Php 4,000. I wanted it so bad however wala nang small size. I tried fitting the medium size kaso it was loose sa top part. Hindi maganda. I can’t ask LT to alter it because she’s busy kasi may yaya problems si Faye. Inisip ko na magpataba ng slight so it can fit pero hindi aabot yun next week. The wedding’s next Friday na.
Janis told me she has this infinity dress and baka gusto ko daw hiramin.
JANIS: Tingnan mo na lang muna yung dress ko. Sayang ang 4,000 mo. Hindi ka pa naman naguulit ng napost mo na. Ipang therapy mo na lang yan 4k.
Tawa ako ng tawa! Janis says the darnest things talaga pero may point di ba?
My psychiatrist’s professional fee is Php 1,000 per 15 minutes. Maling mali ang course na kinuha ko nung college! Lelz. Kaya pag-30 minutes na, I wrap up my session with him. The clock is ticking eh. Nag-aalarm ang wallet ko. Hindot na sakit na ito.
After our short mall stint, we went to Mercury Drugstore to buy my anti-anxiety meds.
Madaming anxious na mga tao ngayon.
I asked Mercury Drugstore to call saan meron. Dun na lang daw sa Mercury Drugstore in Lopez which was 30 minutes away. Bilisan daw namin kasi they will close at 10 pm. I checked the time and past 9am na. Nastress kami ni Janis.
JANIS: Wala ba sa Watson’s?
ME: Wala eh. Hindi sila nagke-carry ng controlled medicines.
JANIS: Ay ganun? Hindi sila supportive sa mga taong tulad mo.
So nagmadali ako. It was a little difficult magmadali because I was driving Alvin’s truck. Ang laki amp. On our way, the gas alarm lit up. Bwiset! We had to stop at a gas station and have it filled up. Grrrrr! Time was running out. I needed to be at Mercury Drugstore in Lopez in 40 minutes otherwise, wala na akong meds for tonight and tomorrow.
JANIS: Dapat kasi bago pa maubos ang stash mo, bumibili ka na.
ME: Hindi ko yan naisip eh.
JANIS: Anong klaseng manager ka hindi mo kaya iplan ahead yung gamot ko.
Life coach ko nga pala guys — Janis Dilao.
Sherry nemen powhz.
So we were rushing and rushing and rushing. We arrived at the drugstore before 10 pm.
JANIS: Ilan ba bibilhin mo?
ME: Hindi ko alam if bilhin ko na tong lahat or half lang.
JANIS: Bilhin mo na lahat. Mukha naman matagal tagal pa tong pagsubok natin na ito eh.
Nakakatuwa. You need friends like her. Prangka pero feel na feel mo na hindi ka iiwan.
On our way home, kwinentuhan ako ng kwinentuhan ng lola mo. I think that is why nawala palpitations ko. Sometimes I envy how carefree Janis is sa life niya. Simple lang, basta kasama lang niya mag-ama niya, okay na okay na siya. Listening to her, I miss my chikabelles self. Yung madaldal and makwento ng todong todo. It’s okay though. I know papunta ako dun. For the meantime, dumidikit muna ako sa kanya because I get very entertained with her stories. It takes my mind off the palpitations. Tawa kasi kami ng tawa eh. She comes over a lot nowadays bilang 3 minute walk lang ang house niya from mine. I appreciate that very much.
Cheers to our friends who have stayed by our side through thick and thin!