Last Thursday, if you were in the parking lot of the In Touch Community compound, you would have seen me there in my car, crying while talking to somebody on the phone. Alvin forgot that I asked him earlier that day if he can go with me to my session with the psychologist. When I was on my way na, I called him and was so surprised when he told me he was at home na.
I got so upset and anxious! I felt so alone! Please don’t judge, ganun talaga if you have something like what I have now. I have irrational fear. I have irrational feelings. Irrational everything! Ang nawala lang is yung irrational shopping habits ko because ummm… I don’t know where it went. Baka this is just a phase. Or maybe sadyang nakakawalang gana magshopping dahil ang mahal ng mga professional fee! Lelz.
Alvin was very apologetic. Akala niya in passing ko lang sinabi a.k.a. may choice siya not to go or it wasn’t that important for me. He calmed me down since loka loka levels nga ako ngayon. I cry over the smallest things, pakshet. I told him that even though they can see me laughing na or parang okay na, it doesn’t mean na okay na talaga ako. I have high functioning anxiety disorder. People have the tendency not to see the severity of how I feel kasi outside, I look okay. He told me that from now on, he will go with me to my. And you know what since that day, Alvin has been very, very consistently pleasant to me. Him being like that really helps me a lot, you know.
I like also that he’s still in his nakakaloka ways.
For example, on our way to Green Canyon resort, we stopped at the toll exit to pay for the toll. The lady inside the booth was pretty, braces and all. Panay pa-cute ng Alvin. Magbabayad lang ang daming smiles amp!
ALVIN: Hi, Ate. Ang ganda niyo naman po.
Batukan ko nga ng isang malupit.
ALVIN: Ate, asawa ko nga pala. May asawa na ako eh! Ano ka ba!
And imagine us while going down that hiking trail.
ALVIN: Babe, naaalala mo pa ano ibig sabihin ng ITALY?
ME: I Trust And Love You.
ALVIN: Galing ah. Eh yung FRANCE?
ME: Friends Remain And Never Can End.
ALVIN: Galing. Eh yung IRAN?
ME: Walang IRAN.
ALVIN: Ikaw Rin Ang Nawalan!
ALVIN: Fine. QUIAPO!
ALVIN: Quiet You I Am Pissed Off!
Hanep. Bwiset! Hahahaha!