I’m addicted to books. Like I buy them even though I know it will be ages since I will be able to read them.
Nowadays, I buy a lot of self-improvement books. I bought the 3 books in the photo over the weekend. Maganda kasi ang reviews.
However, parang ibang self help book yata ang kailangan ko nowadays.
One afternoon, I arrived home from work. Alvin and Alfred (as usual) were there. When I went to kiss Alvin, he tapped my head.
ALVIN: Pagsabihan mo yang anak mo ha.
ME: What did she do?
ALVIN: Nagba-bike siya kanina sa labas. Nakatambay din kami ni Alfred sa labas. Tapos biglang lumapit sa akin. Sabi sa akin, “Tatay you know that boy, he likes to keep on touching my hair!”.
ME: So? Boys like to tease girls lalo na sa age nila na yan.
ALVIN: Anong so?! Kinikilig talaga siya habang nagkukwento siya eh!
ALFRED: Ikaw na ikaw, Nana. Kitang kita ko ikaw kay Anika kanina.
ME (to Alfred): Shut up. You’re not helping.
ALVIN: Bahala ka ha! Ayusin mo yang anak mo. Sinasabi ko sayo. Pagbubuhulin ko kayong mag-ina.
Wtf. High blood agad?!
You know mommies, I dunno ha, I’m approaching pa lang this stage where Anika’s starting to discover boys. Starting to discover them in a way na medyo different. I’m still a newbie. I can’t say that she’s too young ‘coz prep pa lang ako may crush na ako eh. But you know, I don’t think I should talk to her about it just yet. Hindi ko pa nakikita na may malisya eh. I’m afraid that when I talk to her and to her wala lang pala yun, nalagyan ko pa ng malice utak niya.
Anika is very vocal in nature. She laughs a lot. She’s very playful. She’s not asiwa with boys. I mean, when I see her in school, she treats them the same way she treats her girl friends.
Eto na, last Sunday morning, we were having breakfast, Alvin tapped my head again.
I don’t know what’s with him and the tapping of the head but it’s really annoying me.
ME: What now?
ALVIN: Yang anak mo ha. Nakuuu sinasabi ko talaga sayo!
ME: Ano na naman?
ALVIN: Pinapanood ko nung nagpra-practice sila ng cotillion na sayaw. Kilig na kilig na naman dun sa partner niya! Kung hindi lang ako kakanchawan nung mga nandun, tinuktukan ko yun.
ME: Paanong kilig na naman?
ALVIN: Tawa ng tawa. Kilig na kilig! Lagi na lang hinahampas yung partner niya habang tumatawa. Kitang kita mo na kilig na kilig eh.
I rolled my eyes at him.
ALVIN: Bahala ka ha. Sinasabi ko talaga sayo. Ayusin mo yang anak mo.
May sira? May sira ba si Anika at kailangan kong ayusin?!
In front of Alvin, I’m calm. I act as if everything is normal and everything is under control. But deep inside?! Pakshet! Do I need to worry?! She’s 8 years old. May malisya na kaya ang mga yan?
Like I said, Anika is like me. She’s not mahiyain. She says what she feels and express her emotions freely. Pagmasaya yan, tawa yan ng tawa. Being in a co-ed school, she’s very comfortable talking and dealing with girls and boys. Bakit daw yung ibang girls dun, hindi ganun. I said baka they’re shy. Pero kinikilig? I dunno ha.
To be sure, I talked to her while walking to church last night. I asked her about the cotillion and I asked her about her partner.
ME: Okay ba yung partner mo sa cotillion? Who is he?
ANIKA: Oh his name is blah blah blah. We were all laughing because we had to sit on the knees of our partners and the girls didn’t want. You know Nanay, we had a step that I’m holding my partner and then I turn around and then my arms got crossed in front of me. We were laughing and laughing.
Ayun naman pala eh.
I still feel it’s innocent. Wala lang yun. You can’t say naman that she’s looking for attention somewhere else because he doesn’t get it from us eh halos umikot na mundo namin dalawa ni Alvin sa kanya. I’m worried but not that worried yet. Maaga pa. Plenty of time to research how to deal with these scenarios. Is there a book about this? It’s very difficult if you have a daughter, ano?
You know what I’m actually scared of? Pagnaligawan siya ng maaga. God, the mere thought of it makes me so anxious. Anika is pretty. Hindi lang pretty na pretty lang but she has sass. She’s smart and has a great sense of humor. She’s very friendly and she likes it when people are natutuwa with her.
I’m so deadz.
Do I start talking to her about this na? Wala pa naman eh? Pero para prepared?
Mommies with experience na with this, what advice can you give me at this stage? Help!