My head hurts.
I know it’s from being teary eyed, crying and just being sad today.
We went this morning to the hospital to visit one of our office mates who is in the ICU. She’s just two years older than me and it’s not looking too good for her. Please include her in your prayers tonight, guys.
Seeing her in that ICU bed surrounded with all those tubes, seeing her distraught husband who I know is trying his damn best pulling himself together and seeing her two beautiful children there made me realize, life is short.
Life is short but then we waste it in a lot of unnecessary and petty things.
Parang being there kanina made me feel that ang importante talaga for me is my family, that we are healthy and we are together. Everything else is petty na.
Ang petty wanting a bigger house when you have na naman a house na maayos.
Ang petty wanting a nicer car or another new car when you have na naman your own.
Ang petty wanting to be prettier. Ang petty being stressed out about your bilbils or thunder thighs. Ang petty na isip ka ng isip how to be able to go out and buy more clothes when you have enough na naman.
Ang petty. Ang bababaw ng mga concerns natin sa buhay where as ang swerte na pala natin because okay tayo and there are people out there who are really going through difficult time.
Trabaho tayo ng trabaho. Late umuwi. Over time ng over time. Stressed na stressed sa work. Pumapasok kahit may sakit. Nagpapaka-martyr sa trabaho. We don’t realize that health is wealth. We can be replaced anytime by the company we are working for. Nobody is indispensable, remember that. Pero hindi niyo ba naisip na pagnagkasakit ka kakatrabaho and mamatay, nobody can replace you in your family’s lives?
I know, nandiyan na din yung kayod ng kayod to be able to provide well for the family. Hindi ko naman sinasabi na masama yun but in the expense of what? Wala ka nang time sa bahay, for your kids or for yourself? It’s not wrong to work and wanting to have a good life pero while doing that, let us not forget what really matters in our lives.
We really need to do work life balance.
Make sure to lessen the stress in our lives because that is the evil root cause of almost all sickness. Lessen the stress by wanting less, being contented more and learning to prioritize what to do with your time. Hindi natin kailangan gawin lahat yan ng sabay sabay. I often check myself about that now.
We should take care of ourselves more.
We should hug the people we love always.
We should tell them that we love them.
Alvin called me up on my way home from work. Before we hung up, I said I love you. Binabaan niya na ako ng phone. I got so upset, I called him back.
ME: I said I love you, hindi ka man lang nag-i love you too!
ALVIN: Ay sorry Babe, hindi ko narinig.
I started crying.
ME: That is because you don’t say I love you to me on the phone. When will you tell me you love me? Pagnaka-ratay na ako and hindi na makapagsalita and makagalaw?! Dun ka na lang mag-a-i love you sa akin?!
God, I was so upset. I am even crying now as I type this.
We take our loved ones for granted most of the time. Masyado tayo busy with unnecessary things. Pati ako, I admit I’m guilty of that but I want to change that now.
Alvin said sorry and said that he will say I love you to me na all the time on the phone. Nagulat siguro lolo niyo kasi naghysterical ako.
He called me back after a few minutes to tell me wag na ako magisip ng kung ano ano and that love daw niya ako. He knew I was extra sensitive because of where I went kanina.
I wanted to whip out this laptop at the hospital this morning right then and there to tell you all how important it is for us to take care of our health and spend quality time with our loved one. Ang dami ko pang gusto sanang sabihin but ito lang lahat yung naaalala ko now.
Yun lang ang emote ko for today, mga bakla. Pasensya na ang bigat.