Hi guys! Alvin and I just got back from our trip to Siquijor. I had fun. Ang sarap mag-adventure adventure dun. I’m uploading the photos for my blog now. While waiting (ang daming photos, promise!), I came across my swimsuit photos. Thank you for the nice comments and all the likes. I really appreciate them.
Pero hindi kasi ako mapakali mga bakla. I feel like an impokrita to just sit back enjoy all those flattering comments like as if natural na natural sa akin ang ganyang katawan.
To tell you the truth, my tummy is big and definitely not photogenic. Halos pulikatin ang tiyan ko kaka-stomach in just to tuck in my tummy at its flattest. That photo was taken after I ate a big lunch and after I’ve had a few drinks. Kita niyo naman sa sides, kita yung taba pouring out of the bottom of my suit.
Why am I telling you this?
I want to tell you this because not everything you see in photos of other people are the way they are. Don’t think that. May mga exemptions of course diyan sa mga talagang gifted na mga tao pero many of the sexy photos out there are edited. I have been very transparent that I edit my photos using Beauty Plus. I make myself longer kasi normally, my head looks a lot bigger than my short body. Lagi pa akong naka-ponytail so mukha akong alien in photos.
Also, I’m not naturally thin. One thing na maganda with the anxiety depression that I recently went through was I lost 12 lbs. Kaya ako pumayat. For me to maintain that, I have to not eat as much as I like. Malakas ako kumain before as in like 2 rice levels. But now, I don’t eat rice. I try not to eat sweets or anything na mataas in carbohydrates during the week. When I eat a lot like what I did this weekend, I feel like throwing it up. I don’t though. Bulimia na yun. I feel like it lang meaning I’m not happy when I eat a lot. I feel guilty. I feel like running a marathon afterwards para lang ma-burn siya. May ganyang effect na sa akin because I’m conscious about re-gaining all the weight I lost before.
I don’t want naman to be stick thin. Alvin doesn’t like it too. Ang gusto ng lolo niyo is yung mga cheerleader type na katawan. May laman pero medyo athletic ang built. Ganun din ang gusto ko. Fat and muscle in the right places. That’s why I exercise at least 3x a week. If I don’t get to exercise, ganun din. I feel guilty. Nakakapagod but I have to do it if I want to maintain my weight and for the happy hormones.
What I’m saying for others is don’t feel bad if you don’t look as “thin” as those other women in social media. I receive messages like that. Gusto ko sabihan sila na sa totoong buhay baka hindi naman talaga ganyan hitsura nila. Don’t beat yourself too much about it. As long as you’re happy and healthy, it should not matter what you weigh. Confidence in oneself is the key. Hindi naman lahat ng tao diyan nagagandahan sa katawan ko pero wapakels sa kanila. I’ll post what I like. Nakakadala yun, mga bakla. Besides, if they don’t like, they are super free to unfollow, right?
Don’t get stressed or inggit (I feel that sometimes) with the sexy photos of people around us. But if naaapektuhan na talaga yung happiness mo, I guess it’s time to check the diet. Eat healthy and exercise. It’s attainable.
Osha, basta ganun. Again, the important thing is that you are happy and confident with your body no matter what your size is. Don’t compare yourself to others. You’ll feel bad lang. Hindi mo alam baka yung kinakainggitan mo eh photoshopped pala. I’m not saying na lahat ha? I’m just saying not everything in social media is what it seems. Alam niyo na din yan.
Good night everyone. Enjoy the rest of the weekend.