I had this really scary and creepy dream last night.
I was in my car daw and I was caught in traffic at the west service road in Paranaque northbound. There was an accident pala dun sa South Super Highway southbound. The accident scene was very detailed in my dream. May white na car na parang yuping yupi na. Nobody survived the accident daw and they were all brought na to the hospital. It was traffic because the cars were slowing down to make usi. When I slowed down, I saw a guy in a car in the accident scene who seemed to be sleeping. Sabi ko, may naiwan na accident victim. I thought he was dead but then he regained consciousness. Dinala siya sa hospital. And then right then and there, I noticed I had a huge lump on the upper right side of my chest. Apparently, I was in the accident too and I was looking at the scene on a third person’s view. Creepy di ba? They brought me to the hospital then I zoned out.
When I regained consciousness, I saw Wowa standing over me beside my hospital bed. She said that I was in a coma for 24 hours na. I asked if I was dying. She told me yes. She told me that I have a hemorrhage in my head and I have only 24 hours to live. She told me that ng walang ka-emotion emotion na para lang pinaguusapan namin ang weather. I was wondering why she wasn’t crying. Analyzing my dream now, I cannot remember when I saw my mom cry so wala sigurong basis yun kaya hindi ko nakita sa dream ko.
I looked around the hospital room but I didn’t see Alvin and Anika. Parang wala sila dun sa life ko at that moment. My mom asked if I wanted to see this guy, one of my ex-boyfriends. Apparently, in my dream, nandun kami sa period na siya yung boyfriend ko. I said yes and then he went inside the room. He wasn’t crying either. Parang normal na normal lang that I will die in 24 hours. I think that was what bothered me more than dying. Walang umiiyak.
I asked for my phone and called my dad in Amsterdam. Bakit kako wala pa nagsasabi sa kanya? I tried calling him but couldn’t contact him. I thought to myself, I cannot die without my papa by my side, heller. I called Pineda too. She asked me how I was ‘coz she heard I was in an accident. I think akala niya hindi major kaya chill lang siya. That was when I started to choke up. I told her to come to me na because I’m dying in a while.
That was the last thing I remembered before I woke up.
Gumising ako na ang bigat bigat ng chest ko. I transferred to where Alvin was sleeping and tried to make siksik sa kanya. He spooned me and wrapped his arms around me. Things felt better after nun. I tried going back to sleep but I can’t anymore because I was bothered bakit walang umiiyak sa dream ko.
It was a creepy dream.
One of our kasambahays when I was young told me an old wives tale what to do when you dream about something that you don’t want to happen. Ikwento mo daw ng ikwento para hindi magkatotoo kaya eto todo kwento ako ngayon. The details were very vivid in my dream. Parang when that happens (knock on wood), deja vu talaga ang lalabas.
Thinking about it now, I realized I wasn’t able to pray before I slept last night. May lagnat kasi si Anika and I fell asleep na minamassage yung back niya. That’s why. It always happen. I have bad dreams whenever I don’t pray before sleeping.
I’ve always thought that life is short. As morbid as it sounds, I’ve always had this feeling na early ako mamamatay eh pero I’m not prepared to go yet. Anika’s very young. She still needs me and ang dami ko pang gustong i-experience with her. But because of that, ako si seize the moment. Travel! Experience ano mga pwedeng experience. Kaya ako maligalig. Hahahaha. Sabihin ko nga yan kay Alvin mamya para ma-gets niya ako why I always want to travel or to go on vacations with them. Kaya nga ganyan yung picture na nilagay ko for this blog entry eh. I want to remember the happy times. I want to remember yung mga panahon na pwede pa ako magsuot ng ganyan. Time will come na hindi na talaga keribelles mag-ganyan outfit kaya samantalahin.
Osha. It’s a gloomy outside and I think it’s going to rain. Stay dry and safe everyone! Happy Thursday!