I’m still alive.
We have been kasambahay-less for 4 days now and I cannot say that it has been easy. I told you about Day 1 here. Day 2 was 10 times more difficult because there’s something going on again in my private life. It’s very similar as what happened in 2017. Hindi ko ba malaman bakit things like that blow up pagwalang help sa bahay. It’s extra painful because pasko pa naman. Being two individuals who love our little girl so very much, we agreed to put aside our personal hanash so we can go through the holiday season na hindi naaapektuhan ang bagets. We agreed to tackle them right after the festivities with the help of somebody we both trust. Lahat naman daw nagdadaan talaga dito kaya ayaw kong isipin na hindi na kayang ayusin.
So the past few days have been draining both emotionally and physically. Tragis pa tong sahig ng bahay namin, ayaw din makisama. Kakatapos ko lang walisan and i-mop, maalikabok na ulit! The dust never f*cking ends. I have not been to the gym simula nagbakasyon like I planned pero feeling ko araw araw akong nagwowork out sa kaka-ikot ko sa bahay. Baka nga nakaka-10,000 steps ako ng hindi lumalabas ng house eh. Now I know bakit yung ibang mga SAHM mommies ay batak and fit.
I’m always cleaning because Anika has asthma di ba? Hindi siya pwede sa maalikabok otherwise it will trigger it. Idagdag na natin diyan na napaka-OC ko talaga sa bahay.
And there’s the cooking of rice.
In Day 2, I woke up before Alvin. I didn’t know if gigising ba siya for Anika’s breakfast before she goes to school para magsaing so nagsaing ako. When I was preparing to cook na the ulam, lumabas para magluto. Since warla kami, iniwan ko na sinaing ko kasi magluluto na siya ng ulam. Eh tragis, dineadma din niya sinaing ko. Sunog.
(ALVIN (later on nung naguusap na kami): Kulang talaga sa tubig noh. Ang tigas eh.)
When I went out after taking a bath, Anika was already in her school uniform and was already eating.
ANIKA: Nanay, the rice that Tatay cooked is so hard!
ME: Ako nagluto niyan.
ANIKA: Oh. Make sense now.
Kung nagkikibuan lang kami ni Alvin that day malamang, pinagtawanan na ako nun.
Nung Day 3 kami nagkibuan ni Alvin. Medyo gumaan ng konti because despite knowing that everything is not 100% okay, at least nagpapansinan kami. Ang hirap kaya tumira sa bahay na parang may cold war. I hate it. It makes me want to live somewhere else. Hindi ako pang deadmahan eh. Una ang lungkot and second, sayang talaga sa oras.
Anyway, Janis and Mark visited us in Day 3. Tumambay dito sa bahay. Nakatawa naman ako ng slight because may mga walang kwentang paguusap like this:
ALVIN: Alam niyo yung bilog na structure dun sa MOA?
JANIS: Yung Globe?
ALVIN: Hindi, yung nasa likod.
ME: Yung Ferris Wheel?
ALVIN: Tsk! Hindi! Yung parang dome.
ALVIN: Hindi! Malapit lang nga.
JANIS: Cuneta Astrodome?!
Hahahahahahaha! Mga 15 minutes siguro kami tumatawa ni Janis. I am very grateful for friends like them. Anyway, we never figured out what Alvin was talking about. Natapos ang gabi and all, waley.
These past 5 days, ang dami kong realizations.
One, if you ask your husband to wash the dishes, he will say yes. Pero aabutin kayo ng golden wedding anniversary, hindi pa din niya nagagalaw yun.
Two, if you ask your 8 years old to fix the bed while watching TV, debut na niya, hindi pa din niya matatapos yun.
Three, may mga ipis na faker. Nakabaliktad, akala mo patay na. Pero biglang gagalaw at tatakbo pagwawalisin mo na. Magugulat ka to a point na hihiwalay yung kaluluwa mo sa katawang lupa mo.
Four, hindi kumakain ang mga aso ng sunog na kanin. Choosy sila.
Five, kids can tell. Kids can tell if you guys are not okay. They’re very sensitive and observant. And they’re not stupid. We shouldn’t underestimate them.
Anyway, I haven’t shown you our Christmas decoration at home. Anika wanted it madami daw para happy Christmas daw so here it is.
Our small library nook looks like this now.
I love the desk with lamp that I got online. Kulang na lang is a nice, big, comfortable chair. We have yet to find the perfect one eh. Gusto daw ni Alvin, red.
I made those garlands. DIY na lang.
The tree here looks thin. I wonder why. Sa true to life, mataba siya and hitik. Mali lang siguro my angle. And now, there are a lot of gifts na underneath =)
There you go. How about you? Kayo kamusta your Christmas preps? Keribelles pa? Hahahaha! Ariba lang mga bakla. We may run around the metro now (or more accurately, crawl in the traffic) like headless chickens but let’s not forget ano ba talaga yung Christmas dapat for us beyond the decors, gifts and bakasyon. For me, the bottom line of all these bruhahaha is our loved ones and the things we do for them. Yun na yun.
Osha, magsasaing pa ako. I shall repeat the perfect sinaing that I made this morning.
Gorabelles na ulit sa preps. Advanced Merry Christmas guys! 2 more days to go!