Ang tagal na this OOTD ano? This was taken from Anika’s birthday in April. Ganyan ako ka-dalang magblog nowadays. My blog posts cannot catch up with the number of my OOTD photos! Grabeng dalang talaga yan. I miss those days when ang dami kong posts pero kulang ang photos for it. Hahaha! Ngayon, I get to pick pa which one to use as a blog photo. Halata pang luma na because my hair’s a lot longer now.
Anyway, I have received a couple of messages this weekend. Parang ang tahimik ko daw and some were saying that they miss my blogs. Ako din mga bakla, nami-miss ko ang posts. So ano ba kasi ang mga pinagkaka-abalahan ko nowadays?
First, si Anika. She has so many ganap in her life. She has her school. She has volleyball practices. She had her volleyball games. Magkakaroon pa siya more in the next weeks because her team’s the division champion for Makati. Ang funny ng post na ito that my co-parent in volleyball shared.
So very true, huh? Not only that, may mga tweener hanash na ang batang ito. Ang daming feelings. Ang daming tanong. Ang daming concerns. Ang daming paawa effect if we try to go out or do something by ourselves: “Nanay, I don’t have anybody to play with.”. “Tatay, can you please go home na because I’m scared sleeping by myself.”. “Nanay, can we do something together?”. Kung makapagrequest, akala mo hindi namin kasama and kausap all day every day. I am not complaining though ha? I am loving every minute of it. Okay lang wala na akong oras sa iba because I enjoy everything about Anika. I know that I will no longer be able to go back to this time kaya ninamnam ko din siya ng bongga.
Second, lekat na mga Koreanovela yan! Hindi ko ba malaman why I started watching it. Now I cannot stop. Do not start watching Koreanovelas if you want to be productive. It will eat you alive.
Third, I am super busy with work. As in. Umiibang level na ang attitude ko towards it. In a positive way, siyempre. Maybe because I’m getting older (I’m turning 40 in a few month, shit) and because ang dami din talagang projects na ongoing ngayon that I have to monitor. There seems to be a lot to be done. I feel that I am accomplishing things but the things to be tackled at the office or at the site is never ending.
Fourth, the bad traffic is eating up most of my time. My job requires me to go to one project to another which is only within Metro Manila but ang biyahe mga bakla ay para akong nagdrive to another country –> mga Amsterdam to Germany levelz, ganern. Sayang oras sitting inside the car. I can’t do TikTok naman always kasi delikado. Looking at the brighter side, at least nakakapag-me time ako. Isip isip about life. Listen listen sa Spotify. Ima-imagine ng mga wishlist na clothes and bags to buy. Hindi ko na nga lang ieexpound pa because I might be bashed like Marian Rivera. Basta as long as hindi ako tamaan ng antok during midday, I try my best to enjoy my peace when I’m in traffic.
Lastly and most probably this is the main reason why I don’t have that much time to blog is because I am liking being at the moment. In my first few years of blogging, para akong kiti kiti that I have to document everything that I experience in my life. I have to take photos of everything. I have to take videos of everything. Isusulat ko lahat ng nakikita and naririnig ko. Now, no more. Ang sarap ng feeling to just inhale the experience. Nalalasahan ko yung food more. I enjoy my time with Anika and Alvin more. I feel a lot less stressed. Hindi ko need tiisin gutom ko just to be able to take photos of the food that I will eat. I am able to take in the scenery without a camera on my face. And I am able to make pasyal without being ngarag looking for that perfect spot for an OOTD.
But don’t get me wrong. I still enjoy doing all those things. I just don’t feel obligated to do so. Nakakapahinga ako more because iniintindi ko ang sarili ko more. Quality life na tayo men because life begins at 40 di ba? I’m at that point in my life na I think I have proven myself enough to this world and I don’t need
too much validation from society.
So what will you expect from Mommy Fleur na?
I will no longer watch Koreanovelas.
Utot. No. Too much to promise. Hahahahaha! Lulong na ako. I cannot live without watching these shows because watching relaxes me.
May mga chika pa din of course. I promise to share more. I will and continue to be as authentic as I was when you first “met” me. I realized I stopped sharing my shopping finds. I shall continue that nga. It helps other people eh. -And of course, I shall continue advocating mental health awareness. Napaka-importante niyan.
I’ll see you back here ha? Please do check back every day pa din. I will try my best so that you will have something to read about every visit.