The peg was to have a very relaxing long holiday this week.
You know how stressed I was at work so I was really looking forward to spending time with Alvin and Anika.
Alvin and I filed a leave off work ng October 30. We were supposed to go to Baguio from October 29 to October 31. I booked a room overlooking the mountains at Outlook Ridge Residences.
Saturday, October 28, the night before we were supposed to leave, Anika had a low grade fever. Sabi ko patay na. Hindi na kami tuloy nito. So we didn’t pack.
Sunday, October 29, Anika had sinat. Alvin said di na kami tuloy. Hindi daw mapinta mukha naming mag-ina. After an hour, her fever went away. Ngayon iniisip ko, sheer will lang siguro nitong batang ito sa kagustuhan niyang pumunta ng Baguio and hanapin si Tanzan. Tanzan was the pink donkey that she rode when she was 2 years old. Alvin and I thought, it was just one of those one day fever so we pushed through with our trip.
We were wrong.
Anika’s temperature when we arrived in Baguio was 38 degrees. Hindi na niya talaga matago yung sama ng pakiramdam niya. Nung una, ayaw magpakita na may sakit. Okay na okay daw siya. We gave her paracetamol. However, around 930pm, her fever shot up to 39.8 degrees. Nagtatawag na ako by this time sa mga engineers namin sa Baguio to ask anong magandang hospitals dun. Panic mode. All this time, punas kami ng punas lang kay Anika ng cold water. We gave her Dolan. I didn’t sleep. Bantay ako ng bantay. Anika’s heartbeat was so fast. Her fever broke around 12:30am. Tulog gising ako until 5am.
Alvin and I talked. Are we going to have her rest na lang muna and go home the next day as planned or uwi na? We chose to go home na. Hindi ko gamay Baguio. In case Anika needs to be admitted, hindi ko gamay yung mga hospitals dun.
We started going back to Manila by 7am after breakfast.
Anika kept on having on and off fever after that.
And my throat started hurting like crazy. I was also having fever na and my cough was nagwawala!
October 31, we brought Anika to the Asian Hospital ER kasi hindi humuhupa lagnat niya. It has been three days. Alvin and I also had ourselves checked. Her CBC results said that she had a viral infection. We continued lang with the antibiotic that she was taking and was told to drink paracetamol if may fever. I was told I had tonsilitis and was given Augmentin. Ito yung antibiotic na parang sinusunog ang laman loob mo sa tapang. Usually, 2x a day lang ito. The doctor told me to drink it 3x a day. Dedz. Alvin’s fine. They just gave him something for the clogged sipon. We were sent home.
November 1, Anika’s fever went up again to 39 point something. Hindi na naman kami pinatulog. We were alternating paracetamol and ibuprofen to manage her fever.
Imagine mga bakla, nilalagnat ako. Latang lata ako sa antibiotics ko. When I cough, parang kakalas yung lungs ko sa sakit. My nose was so clogged that my eyes were permanently watery. I was having LBM. And my head hurt like hell.
I was feeling all those while taking care of Anika. Alvin was doing his part partida ang sama na din ng katawan niya. Hindi ko lang mapa-ubaya because well, nanay ako.
We decided to take her to the ER again today to have her confined. Kailangan na namin ng tulong. Her fever doesn’t go down anymore. Lagi na lang 39. Nakakasira ng bait. Feeling ko mamamatay na ako sa sakit ko plus sa stress.
Like what I said in my IG, ito na ang pinakamahirap kong nadanasan sa 7 years kong pagiging nanay.
I asked Wowa to accompany me. Alvin had to attend to the two houses under construction. Nakaka-awa din ang mamang yun. He isn’t feeling well talaga but had to go.
After 6 hours in the ER (last na talaga ito sa Asian Hospital, promise), we were finally checked in a room. OA sa emergency room ng Asian. Busangot yung nurse namin. Ang sama na nga ng pakiramdam naming 2 ni Anika, simangot galore talaga siya. Buti after a while ngumiti na yung mga doctors. Akala ko until ending parang fault namin na pagod sila.
Ito akin lang naman. Wag niyo naman sana masamain guys. This is just coming from a sick mom with a very sick daughter. I know being in the medical field is difficult. I cannot imagine myself there kasi I am scared of blood. Saludo nga kami lahat sa inyo. Pero nandiyan na tayo eh. Mano bang maging cordial ng slight. Hindi naman namin fault to be sick. Okay sana to push a tiniest bit of effort pa sana to be a little friendlier. Wag naman mataray or busangot. Of course nandiyan na tayo that they have been working for hours na, pero hindi naman namin fault yun. It would matter a lot to the patients and parents if may smile ng konti lang.
Yun lang. End of rant.
Anyway, Anika was able to nap. She still has fever now. I think we made a good choice of confining her.
We were told by the ER pedia that they noticed nowadays ang tatagal na ng lagnat ng mga kids when they have viral illnesses. Hindi tulad dati na three days okay na. Ngayon umaabot daw talaga ng 7 days.
I’m really sad guys. I think one’s parenthood experience will not be complete without experiencing being sick and having to attend to sick children. Grabe mga bakla. Saludo na talaga ako sa mga single parents. How do you do it? I am grateful Alvin is with me. Kahit na may sipon lang siya pero medyo trangkaso ang acting, he really helps out. I am just praying wag magtuloy tuloy yung sakit niya. Hawa hawa na kasi kami.
A while ago I was thinking, although I am grateful Wowa arrived to help us, at the end of the day, kami lang talagang tatlo ang together sa ganito. This may be a very difficult time for us pero after this, we are going to be stronger.
Anika’s pulmo-pedia just saw her. Initial finding is bronchitis daw. She’ll have xray tom to rule out pneumonia.
I feel so relaxed now that her pedia saw her na. Okay talaga na nagpaconfine na kami. Plus I drank Ascof Lagundi with Decolgen. Grabe. I felt better instantly. Parang commercial ano? Pero sobra true. Kanina akala ko mamamatay na ako sa grabe ng cough ko. Effective pala ito.
Osha. I shall sleep na. At least I’ll get to blog here.
Wishing for a better day tomorrow.
Please do pray for us.